Memories of Michelle
An Evolving Poetry Collection
By : Jeff Hood
35 trips, 13 countries , Three and a half years of what will always be something more beautiful than words is one way to describe my relationship with Michelle. She fell in love with the words she read, and in the end the words I spoke drove her away. So maybe we have to come full circle. Just because something ends doesn't mean it's over. I hope someone else reads these poems one day and finds inspiration or hope. I love you Michelle
Hanoi and then some..
I remember Hanoi bustling and beautiful
And the sounds of Tokyo that were so soft and serene
That moment she kissed me in Bali that still feels like a dream
A market in Kyoto, a meal a Spain
That one very long walk in the Japanese rain
Each and every moment carved into my brain
I am unable to forget and that is exactly what keeps me sane.
And with all this regret and shame.
These beautiful memories do very little to numb the pain.
Thrasher
Sundays at thrasher were always the same
Me and you living next door to the Hollywood fame
Puzzles and memories of foreign places
Kisses in the darkness and those little alien faces
I could live a thousand times and never replace those memories in my mind
Will you be you
My mind is always trying to make sense of things it can't. Does it even matter if it does? How did it end, why did I leave. What made me cross over the edge into what it is now. Will I ever find my way back. And if I do will you even be you. Or did I do something so tragic that I lost you forever. The curse of my mind is that it's an endless machine winding at all times.
Fuji
How far we traveled just to reach the sun
The top of a mountain I never thought could be done
You held my hand through every street
Looked at me softly when I stumbled on my feet
Fuji became our place where peace was created in a name
And it lives on my body now as a reminder of the pain
KTOWN
Outside on the street I could hear the city shuffling its feet
Loud cars and crazy sounds
The never ending soundtrack of Ktown
Hope outside my window
And love inside my room
But I always felt alone
Except when Fuji and I would wait for you to come home
Kitchen talk
Wine on your lips, tears in your eyes
Was it a first date to remember
Or just a really long goodbye
Everyone tells me to move on
But I love you
Why can't I forget you
Because I don't want to
Long Noodle
Long noodle long life
Cold dishes and bright lights
Hand pays and chop chop
Saturdays in the mini without the top
Long walks
Short hikes
That one endless ride on those fucking beach bikes
Our life was my favorite song
And it lives on repeat now that your gone
Meet me there
I would trade the world to hold your hand one more time
I would give everything up to just make you mine
I cannot let go of what never was
I cannot forget what never will be
The memories of hope are what haunt me
Please come back to the place we began
Meet me on the street lets create a new plan
Where dreams finally come true
And in the end there is only me and you
Back home to you
Vegas glows, but feels so cold,
without your warmth, I’ve lost my hold.
You’re in LA where mornings shine,
but here the nights are just me alone in my mind
I built this wall, I made it tall,
a canyon formed, I let it fall.
Do you still hear my voice at night,
or feel my shadow in the light?
I’ll cross the dark, I’ll brave the fight,
to reach your heart, to make it right.
No glow compares, no city view—
I want to find my way back home to you.
Goodbye
This pain never leaves
It never ends
The fear never fades
It will never subside
I only have this regret
Of this lonely endless long goodbye
The Shadow’s Echo
A flicker of light,
slipping away
to the depths of the night.
The silence grows heavy,
a burden to bear,
words left unsaid
just hang in the air.
They fade like a whisper,
once steady and bold,
swallowed by indifference,
now lifeless and cold.
Michelle
She was what was always missing
I see only forever in her eyes
Hear only hope in her words
The purest form of perfection created from thin air
Like finding magic in a world where there is none anywhere
It was as simple as saying yes to meeting for coffee on a beverly hills street
To having that first kiss after waiting so long to meet
Magic for me is being under your spell
It's a simple a saying the words I love you Michelle
How flawed of a man I once was
Till I found you to show me who i truly could be
And each time you read this I want you to remember how much you mean to me